Happy Birthday

Please accept my apologies, wonder what would have been
Would you've been a little angel or an angel of sin?
Tom-boy running around, hanging with all the guys.
Or a little tough boy with beautiful brown eyes?
I payed for the murder before they determined the sex
Choosing our life over your life meant your death
And you never got a chance to even open your eyes
Sometimes I wonder as a fetus if you faught for your life?
Would you have been a little genius in love with math?
Would you have played in your schoolclothes and made me mad?
Would you have made me quit smokin' by finding one of my lighters?
I wonder about your skintone and shape of your nose?
And the way you would have laughed and talked fast or slow?
Think about it every year, so I picked up a pen
Happy birthday, love you whoever you would have been

Happy birthday..

Liverpool 2016

Guess who's back, back again. Rebecca's back, tell a friend.

So what's happened since last time I was on here? I mean, I don't think it's been that long but my friends don't agree. So I'm taking one for the team and writing you a post.

I just got back from Liverpool, so happy I went even if I was ill the first two days and spent far too much money on alcohol and clothes. Met some old friends and some new ones, had breakfast in Costa on the daily and had some time for myself. To be perfectly honest I feel like it was exactly what I needed. I needed to get away from everything for a little bit, sort my head out and take a little break from life.

I''m back home now and I'm happy, I feel like I'm back to normal. I'm doing what I'm meant to be doing for school, I'm back in work, back in the gym, sorted things out with Magnus who is now my boyfriend.. I finally feel like after a few rocky months, I'm back on track. Even put the cigarettes aside.

Although I'm writing this when I should be writing an essay, it feels really good being back in school. I was had the flu for a week and then went to England but I'm back now. Constantly have my face in a book, just the way I like it. :)

Anyway, here are some prictures from when I was in my favourite city in the whole world..
these can also be found on my instagram @janarebeccacaroline

24 things I've learned over 24 years.

Just watched Jenna Marbles video on 29 life lessons in 29 years and thought "Hey, that's a great idea!" so here it is.

1, Don't shake a box of pearls when the lid isn't on. 
- No it does not sound like you're making popcorn and it takes forever to clean up.

2, If you want to do something, do it! 
- Just do it!

3, Don't waste your time on people who doesn't care. 
- If someone doesn't care about you, what are you doing still caring about them?

4, Give people compliments.
- Who'e ever gotten pissed of by hearing they have nice hair? No one!

5, Don't eat a whole pizza and 1kg of winegums in one night.
- You will be sick.

6, Smile!
- Just smile, constantly. Nobody likes resting bitch face.

7, Stay focused in school. 
- That way, you can get a good job or go to uni when you're 19, not 24.

8, Don't piss off your mum when she's holding a bottle of flavoured water.
- It takes a while to shower out flavoured water out of your hair.

9, If it feels right, it most likely is. 
- The same goes for wrong..

10, Don't change yourself for a guy. 
- Why on earth would you? If he doesn't like you the way you are. Tough Shit. Bye.

11, Be honest. 
- Always alwasy always better to be honest.

12, Don't make massive snowballs and block the road with them.
- People can really hurt, and extremely pissed off.

13, Work hard.
- Whatever you're working towards, you won't get anywhere without hard work.

14, Pink pants are never a good look.
- Just don't!

15, Reading is cool.
- Reading is the best!

16, Buy the expencive things if you want.
- You'll only but pizza and crisps for the money if you don't anyway!

17, Keep it classy.
If someone is embarrassing themselves by sinking to a whole new level. Smile and walk away.

18, Always listen to your nan. 
- She's always right.

19, Don't worry so much.
- It won't matter in a year from now anyway.

20, Not all good looking people are mean.
- Mean people are mean, it has nothing to do with looks.

21, Not eating doesn't make you feel better.
- But it does make you skinnier.

22, Listening to Taylor Swift and Hot Chelle Rae really does make you feel better.
- Try it!

23, Shit happens. 
- Take a day off, eat chocolate, read a good book, cry. Tomorrow is a new day!

24, Travel!
- Never say no when you get a chance to see the world.

Liverpool in January

Last night I booked a little trip to Liverpool. Going for 6 days in January and I'm more than excited! I normally go a few times a year and I've only been one time this year. I already have 3 little dates planned with friends over there so I'm sure it will be amazing and I won't want to leave, like every time I go, haha. Will for sure move back there when I'm done with school.

Also thinking about getting a tatto when I'm over there, not sure though because I'm scared it will hurt really bad, haha. Only getting a small one so it might not be too bad? Hmm.. We'll see. :)

Girls night out.

Matlida just moved out a week ago, so we decided to have a girls night. We started at hers becuase we all wanted to see where she lives and oh my, she is like the interior design queen. If her flat was an eyebrow, it would be on fleek! Haha, absolutely loved everything about it.

I haven't laughed that much in a really long time. So nice to just relax with a few friends and not worry about anything.Later on we decided to go out, getting to town from hers was an adventure of it's own, haha. Had one of the most fun nights out I've ever had. There were soo many people out and absolutely zero drama. It was spot on! So we're doing it again next week, but a bit more chill, and a little less being hungover hopefully.

There is nothing in the world that beats good friends! <3

It's my birthday soon!

It's my birthday next week, normally I'm really excited about birthdays, mine or others - doesn't matter. We have always made birthdays a big deal in my family. I wasn't really excited about mine this year, there are so many other things going on and I thought I'd just pretend it's not even happening and treat it like a normal Wednesday. But the more I think about it the more I think I shouldn't let stupid things ruin special days as well as normal days?! Right? So I have decided I'm going out for a meal with a few friends after our lectures to have a laugh and a good time, can't wait! :)

This weekend;

I am overly excited to let you know that my sister Amanda is coming to visit me. It's the first time since I moved down here and I can't wait to see her. Not sure exactly what we're going to do but I'm pretty sure it will involve wine, heels and drunken texts, haha. How am I meant to get all my school work done when she's here? Haha.

I'm also in work today, and it's the last day for about a month. Finally I can have a day off! Haha, don't get me wrong, I absolutely love my job, but when you study full time and work part time it can get a little stressful, haha. So now I'll have about 3 weeks off from work and just focus on school and myself. :)

What are your plans for the weekend?

This is me and my sister about 4 years ago. :) 

Chanel.

Hey, so it's been a little while since I was last on here and I thought I'd show you some new beauties in my collection/makeup bag.

I got most of these last week, because I needed them but also because you can't have too many nail polishes or lipsticks!? haha. :) Oh I also got my sister one of those YSL lipbalms that are all over instagram, it was meant to be for her birthday but she's not been feeling too good lately so she got it a little earlier. :)

Woman Crush Wednesday.

So, it's wednesday and that means it's also #WomanCrushWednesday! Yey! Haha, I actually saw this on an other blog, I'd never heard this before but why not? Women could do with being nice to each other.. Am i right? haha. :)

I have soo many woman crushes it's probably weird, but here's one: Miranda Kerr. 

How can you not love this face? haha She looks like she's the nicest person on the planet, ok, be serious now.. could you be angry at that face? No chance! haha. Also she's got a banging body. It's to die for!

Who's your #womancrushwednesday?

My 5 biggest irrational fears.

We all have them? Here are mine.. 

1, That someone has put a camera in the toilet.
- Which is why I never use the toilets in clubs or restaurants. 

2, Being killed when we overtake a lorry in the rain on the motorway.
- One day, it will get too wet on the road and we will slip in under the lorry and die. 

3, There will be someone looking back at me if I look into a mirror in the dark.
- Surely I'm not the only one who doesn't look myself in the mirror in a dark room? 

4, Being on a high bridge and it crumbles and I fall to my death.
- I. Hate. Bridges.

5, Russia invading Sweden.
- Is this irrational tho? Really? Doesn't matter, because I have a plan!